How do I say?

It's been a long long time since I've felt this much emotions building up in me.
Stress, disappointment, hatred, anger...
Just feel like breaking down.
If I could, I wished that I can lay on my bed the whole day, and there will be no need for me to be bothered about any thing.
Every morning, I open my eyes and I realise, there's going to be **** today, and I don't feel like leaving my bed.
Every time, when I'm reminded of ****, I feel so infuriated that I want to swear our loud.
Every moment that I'm occupied with something related to ****, I feel like just throwing away that stupid responsibility that I don't get why I have to carry on my back.

Is there a need for all this?
For me to go through all the emotions, stress, when the others aren't doing anything?
When they can relax, and we have to do everything for them?
And in the end, we all share the same credit. What's the freaking problem with them.
And they still think that they're so great that they have the right to shout at me?
And they still think that they're better than me or anyone else?
And they still think that they deserve more than us?
Idiots.

And I don't get why they're doing this to us.
Why can't they think in our shoes?
They do know that we have much lesser time than they did in the past, so why aren't they making things easier for us?
Can't they come up with a better plan?
Inform us earlier and we would have more time to come up with better things for you.
Inform us earlier and we would have more time to complete.
Inform us earlier and we would have more time to complete and we wouldn't have to rush everything and we wouldn't be feeling this stressed out.
And you blame us for not giving work that is up to standard.
And you blame us for not doing work seriously, and always doing last minute work, when we really do not have enough time for all these freaking stuffs.
And what happens when we try to explain?
You say that there should be enough time.

Why would you think that we have enough time for all the freaking things that we have to do?
Although lesson periods are extended, teachers infact have lesser time with us because they have lesser periods with us during the week, meaning the teachers have to rush their teaching and we have to do our own self-study at home.
And everyday, after school, because of ****, we'll reach home only at 6/7/8++.
And when we reach home, we'll have our school work, homework, study for tests and exams.
And what's left is time for us to sleep only.
WE REALLY DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THESE.

ARGH.

Feel like swearing every now and then.

You said we'll be free of these once **** are over, but have you thought of what's approaching us next?

SHINHWA CHANGJO.

I BECAME A OFFICIAL SHINHWA CHANGJO FAN CLUB MEMBER AT 3.52AM ON THE 18TH OF JANUARY 2009.

I LOVE SHINHWA!

Love love love.

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

I’m sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didn’t do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters
Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk?
(Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

I’m sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didn’t read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, I’m sure I'll see you again

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A song for people who's broken hearted.

CSS 3~ :D

Yay. Went to support Rachel Chua yesterday at the live recording of Campus Superstar 3. :D

When introducing Rachel, Felicia Chin stood beside meeeee! And had her hand over my armsss~ HEHEHEHE.
I stood beside her and blew the whistle spastically. LOL. Wonder if anyone who knows me saw my face and laughed. x).

Then during the commercial break, she came over and said "thank you" and patted my shoulder and smiled at meeeee! LAALALLALA~

So nice. :D And it's Felicia Chin! :D

And Yuan Shuai very shuai. :l
Sugi was so cute and funny. Hehehe.

And Jarod's so cuteee! Cuteness overload. LOL.
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Didn't go to school today, cause when I woke up this morning, I experienced some stupid stomachache. Super pain. :l And so I missed the common test today.
:(.
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I can't wait for this to be over.
And I'm pissed.

Update~

Lol. I've decided to update my dead blog. x).

Today's the Christmas's Eve~
And tomorrow's Christmas!
I'm so excited about the gift exchange with lovely people. x).

And I'm thinking of changing my blog skin. ahahaha.
Any nice skins to introduce? :D

Went shopping with mama yesterday and bought new clothes for Chinese New Year.
CNY's somewhere in January, so it's coming real soon!
Angbaoooosss! <3 :D
And I bought 1 pair of slippers with a cute smiley face on top for $6.90. Heh.

WOOHOOO.
Korean Hana Yori Dango 7mins Preview!
HyunJoong so shuai!!! :D

It comes out in January in Korea.
Hopes someone subs this and uploads it online then we all can watch~ :D

School's reopening soon, and I haven't start on homework yet. -.-!
Reading a few pages of Toto-chan doesn't count, right? :l Lol.
Study group, anybody?

Still, we didn't get to do what we planned to do in the holidays, meow. :'(

Really missing 2B. T.T

I'm addicted to Korean music. :D
So nice~! <3
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BNCO CAMP.
Some of you might know that I went for a Sjab camp on the 1-5 Dec.
Hilarious things happened and I think I should share one of them. ahaha

Shit and flooded toilet bowl incident-
On the 4th night of camp, A, B and C went to the toilet together to shit.
As A and C was shitting, B was outside brushing her teeth and washing her face.
When A was done, she flushed the toilet bowl but the shit just did not went down the toilet bowl, and instead the toilet bowl choked and water almost came out of the toilet bowl.
Imagine the toilet bowl filled with water and 2 balls of shit floating in the water...
A became flustered and did not know what to do so she told B.
B then said, "Just pick the shit up! Tomorrow if Sir they all come and check then if they think we never flush toilet after doing our business, we'll get punished! "
And B found A a plastic bag to act as a glove for her to pick up her shit.
Then B took the toilet paper went into another cubicle to shit while A was picking up her own shit.
The next morning, during packing up session, B experiences stomachache and goes into the toilet to shit. Unknowingly, B enters the cubicle A enters the night before.
Once again, the toilet bowl becomes flooded with water.
This time, imagine a lump of shit floating in the water...
B became flustered as they were only given 15mins to pack up and she already spent 10mins in the toilet.
So B just covered the toilet bowl and ran back to her bunk to pack her things.
And all of them returned to the canteen to gather.
Then, during cleaning up session, B took the chance and went to the toilet to check on the toilet bowl and her shit.
To her horror, someone stupidly flushed the toilet once more and causing the toilet bowl to flood, spilling water out of the toilet bowl...
Imagine shit and shit-coloured water here and there on the floor and over the toilet bowl...

O.O
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Anyway, I really can't think of anything to post/blog about... So that's all for today I guess. :D